It is crucial to not be envious of what others have. If you want for things you do not have then you will go mad, truly. I know this first hand from searching for the perfect...fill in the blank.
“We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have.” Frederick Keonig
I have spent a lot of time home in the last 9 months. I have done a lot of HGTV watching..and I mean A LOT. From Color Splash to House Hunters International my mouth has drooled over paint colors and gardens. I just keep wondering, why can't I do that? Am I too scared to paint my bedroom walls gray? Am I not willing to spend $3k on a totally awesome couch for the front room? Do I just not have access to the places decorators do to find these fab pieces? All of the above I suppose. It will be good for me to return to work and stop pining over what my home looks like (or doesn't look like rather). After all once I start leaving before the sun comes up again I will not even realize what color my bedroom is painted. *sigh*
Going back to work brings up another "envy" topic. As the universe knows, I love Oprah. I watch her show religiously and pine over Nate Berkus, Lisa Ling, Gayle King etc. I want to be them! I want to travel around with world and report on the news of the day. I want to be the one in the trenches next to a soldier getting shot at. I want to report from the borders of North Korea or from the marshland of Mississippi. In all honesty, I don't want to be trapped in a nursing home for 8 hours a day. *big sigh* Yes, I am happy to have a job. I do realize that I am fortunate to not be laid off anymore. But I can't help asking myself...what about my dreams?
