Friends

Sometimes you have a friend for years and you never grow the ability to be honest.
One day you decide to try to spill your guts about something and they fly off the handle.
Even something small and insignificant like telling them to stop sending you spam.
Is it because you should have been honest a little at a time, all along?
If you start off being frank then everyone just hates you from the get-go...?
If that is the case, then you never have the chance to really know each other at all.
I never lie to my friends.  That is not what I am talking about.
I am talking about being the kind of friend that tells you when you have spinach in your teeth.
I know I want those kinds of friends.
I guess other people don't.
I find it very hard to be confrontational with anyone.  I want to feel comfortable enough in my friendships that a person can tell me when to shut my pie hole.  Am I the only person that feels that friendship should be more than just a yes-man kind of relationship?

I am a "I'm sorry man".  I apologize for things that could never have been my fault.  Sometimes I use is as a filler...."I'm sorry you got in a car accident".  I sometimes use it when I don't want to.  I use it when I want to say something completely different.  I have tried to use other lines to say how I REALLY feel.  My husband uses the line "That is not acceptable" frequently.  I have taken that one on.  It tends to be just too perfect pretty damn often....There is not an open sick visit with your PCP for 6 weeks.  The cell phone bill shows up with a text message charge even though we have shut off text messaging 78 times.  The computer at the bank is down for the fourth time this week.  I just cannot say "I'm sorry" anymore or "it's ok".  Oooo "It's OK" is another BAD one!!!  Ya know what?  It is NOT OK!!!  It is not OK that you raised my interest rate on my credit card when I have been a perfect customer for 5 years.  It is not ok that my car interior is melting and you don't feel that it is a warranty issue.  When in the world did everyone become unaccountable?  OMG it is nights like tonight I wish that I drank!