Emotional

I have been feeling really emotional the past few days.  It vacillates between of homicidality and tears.  Not my favorite two emotions for sure.  This tells me that my hormones are all off again but allows me to logically know in my heart that I am not nuts.  It is purely a temporary condition.  I hate crying everyday.  Yesterday it was General Stanley McChrystal, the increased amount of oil pouring into our gulf, Open Office, BP stiffing people out of their money causing them to lose their cars/homes/sanity, our car accident case, and our checking account.  I remember one night when Jim and I lived in the condo in Palm Harbor (I always recall things by residences since I have had 21).  We walked next door to Publix for an odd or an end and we sat on the curb by the parking lot.  I told Jim that I just HATE watching the news...it makes me SO sad and SO concerned and it deeply affects me as a person.  I feel the need to do something--anything to help well, everyone.  I stopped watching the news for a long time.  Like chatting with my Dad, I just could not take subjecting myself to it over and over again.  Why set yourself up like that?  I think part of the issue though is my inability to process things from afar like other people.  When my hormones and emotions are having a "free for all" I just have to check myself.  Now that I have a diagnosis (finally) and increased insight this makes the check easier....a little.  I pray for Dawn and her mom that has a brain crawling with cancer.  I pray for the General to find peace and a new path.  I pray for my new Bahamian friends that are going to lose 100% of their livelihood when the oil hits their island.  I pray for my current lawyer to get hit in the jaw by my past neighbor/lawyer if nothing else.  Prayer allows the burden to go back to Him...after all, He is the one with the answers!

happy thoughts:(underwater camera)