Emotional

I have been feeling really emotional the past few days.  It vacillates between of homicidality and tears.  Not my favorite two emotions for sure.  This tells me that my hormones are all off again but allows me to logically know in my heart that I am not nuts.  It is purely a temporary condition.  I hate crying everyday.  Yesterday it was General Stanley McChrystal, the increased amount of oil pouring into our gulf, Open Office, BP stiffing people out of their money causing them to lose their cars/homes/sanity, our car accident case, and our checking account.  I remember one night when Jim and I lived in the condo in Palm Harbor (I always recall things by residences since I have had 21).  We walked next door to Publix for an odd or an end and we sat on the curb by the parking lot.  I told Jim that I just HATE watching the news...it makes me SO sad and SO concerned and it deeply affects me as a person.  I feel the need to do something--anything to help well, everyone.  I stopped watching the news for a long time.  Like chatting with my Dad, I just could not take subjecting myself to it over and over again.  Why set yourself up like that?  I think part of the issue though is my inability to process things from afar like other people.  When my hormones and emotions are having a "free for all" I just have to check myself.  Now that I have a diagnosis (finally) and increased insight this makes the check easier....a little.  I pray for Dawn and her mom that has a brain crawling with cancer.  I pray for the General to find peace and a new path.  I pray for my new Bahamian friends that are going to lose 100% of their livelihood when the oil hits their island.  I pray for my current lawyer to get hit in the jaw by my past neighbor/lawyer if nothing else.  Prayer allows the burden to go back to Him...after all, He is the one with the answers!

happy thoughts:(underwater camera)

Lists

I love lists.  I have bucket lists, places to go in FL lists, to-do lists, Christmas/birthday gift ideas, people's anniversaries, important dates in my life, bills, medical procedures, budgets, things to pick up at Lowes, grocery, wish, doctors, employment, residences...etc.  Sometimes I wonder...is this a normal thing to do?  I mean a "to do" list is one thing but ......?  In all honesty, I really don't care because it helps me to be motivated and to stay motivated and most importantly, NOT TO FORGET!  The older I get, the more I feel the need to compartmentalize everything to makes sense of it all.

It is awesome to have some life long friends as they help you remember the times you've forgotten and vice versa.  I realized this when I went up north for New Years and got the opportunity to visit my ole friends :) To all my fellow list makers out there I have to share my fav list of all is the "present list".  When you go  window shopping with a friend that is hard to buy gifts for just jot down things he/she points out in stores and you'll get a beat on what the person likes, fav colors, tastes etc.  If I run into something cool in May I'll buy it in May.  After all, who wants to go hunting for it later when it is right there?? :)  That is my tip of the day *giggle*.

Ahh it's good to be a chick :D












(taken at farm supply company in Hudson, FL)