Life After O

I watch every Oprah show now from the edge of my seat.  Things seem different.  Her attitude is carefree and her speech is less processed.  Today we learned more about food and where it comes from.  It's happy ending was a half price deal...ahhh : )  I try not to think about a year from now when she is gone.  I have spent decades of my life (nearly) watching her, learning new things, thinking more about the world and all it's places.  She is like the mother I never had....she tells me how to live better, love better and be better.  She shows me how to pay down credit cards and how to exercise.  I push down the growing fear.  What am I going to do without her?  I am not being dramatic I promise you.  I cannot think of any other human being that has inspired me like she has from my cluttered closet to my charities she is in my heart and mind and soul.  It saddens me that I have no one to take her place when she is gone.  Gotta go find a tissue....

Goals for 2010

1. Learn Zumba
2. Complete 30 days of yoga (consecutively) 
3. Have dinner with my husband often (5 days a week)
4. Get all of my pictures loaded into Aperture
5. Create a web site
6. Travel somewhere outside the US twice
7. Go to the Bahamas for my 33rd birthday

Are you serious?

Are you serious?  You cannot really be serious?!  No way....

December 4th 1pm.  I interview with Colleen Wetzel at Hospice of St. Francis.  She tells me about 2 positions available.  Position # 1 Full time working in Titusville     Position # 2 Part time working on the south team.
I choose position # 2.  She asks me if I can start Monday.  I tell her probably but I need to check my calendar to be certain.

January 6th 10am  I get an email from Colleen Wetzel stating there are no open positions at HOSF.

WHAT?!

Ugh

Grumble
It is sun up. I wake for the 11th time to his snoring.  I'd sleep downstairs but then I have the pounding of construction.  One more house and they are done-thankfully!

Motivation

Happy New Year!  I am home and unpacked.  I still feel unmotivated.  Completely.  Thank you cards need to be written.  Photos need to be downloaded.  House needs to be cleaned.  However, I don't care much.

Where does motivation come from anyway?  It is different from energy.  Energy makes your eyes stay open.  Motivation gets your feet moving.

Doctors tell you that when you are not motivated then you must be depressed.  I do not believe that at all.  There are other reasons that a person is not motivated.


Motivation is the combination of a person's desire and energy directed at achieving a goal. It is the cause of action.