Back to normal

Everyone says the same thing...
Hopefully, when this all gets settled things will go "back to normal".
Back to normal.
What does that mean?
There has never, ever been a "normal".
My health has been bad.  My relationships have been bad.  My finances have been bad.  My decisions always seem incorrect no matter how long I ponder them.  It is just a big joke.
I wonder to myself out loud am I even in control?  At all????  I know God is THE ONE truly in control.  Do I have any say in it at all?  Day after day spins to an end.  They go so quickly it is intolerable.  I do not wish for things to go this way.......